Found out that..
this post is the 200th post for my blog..
It shld b a great thing..
Bt seem like my mood do not sense any happiness for it..
Have been almost 1 month with you..my love..
Many things happened..
Happy..
Memorable..
Sad..
Tears..
I dunno WHY..
My personal attitude issit so BAD that cause problem in our relationship..
you said that I always nt happy for ntg..
and you dun un why I will nt happy..
Everytime when I'm nt happy..
you will nt happy too..
It makes me suffer as I dun wan you to become nt happy..
Act..
everytime when I'm nt happy..
I jz need you to cheer me up..
a kiss,a hug,or jz some simple words will do..
I jz need that..
bt..
everytime in this situation..
you will be unhappy..
and because my mood is down..
I cant even think anything to cheer you up..
It makes me feel very bad whenever you feel unhappy..
It makes me feel that I did smtg wrongly..
It makes me feel that I'm a useless BF..
It makes me feel that guilty to be nt happy..
I dun care
when I'm nt happy..
Because I can control it by my own..
and I can cheer myself up within 1 day..
But I seriously care
when you are nt happy..
My heart feels so pain when you are nt happy..
My heart breaks when your tears drop down..
I'm SORRY
that I cant make u happy all the time..
It's my failure..
I HATE myself for making you unhappy..
I HATE my emotional that cant b controlled well..
I HATE EDDISON!
When I hold you too tight..
I'm afraid that you will feel painful..
When I hold you too light..
I'm afraid that you will walk away from me..
so what should I do?
I LOVE YOU
Le~